Since I've joined RJ YEARS ago, I've shared most of my life here...

[SeaDogStat]

My deepest sympathies, Steve... I am so very sorry for your loss.

[madducks]

I'm so sorry to hear this heartbreaking news Steve. My deepest sympathy to you and your family.

[Mithrandir]

Prayers and condolences to you Steve and your family.

A staggering loss for sure.

Damn

[Piney Boy]

Damn Steve I am so sorry to hear this. First off it is okay to cry over this. Let it out and don't keep it in. I went through this just last year in August when my oldest daughter passed away (19 years old). I still find myself crying from time to time. My wife is still a mess because of it and cries more than me. For me I cried so much it hurt to cry anymore.

Take your time first off. Don't rush into any decisions and just take it day by day for a good while. Then when your up to it do find some grief counseling if you feel you need it. It has helped me as I definitely had an issue with the doctor that took care of my daughter.

For now we will be lifting you up in prayers. Believe me I think we as a community are hurting with you today. JJ said it well. We all enjoy your lighthearted posts here.

[nots]

I'm so sorry for your loss and deeply awed by your sharing and transparency in the face of such a terrible situation. All the best.

[jwlincy]

So very sorry for your loss, Steve. Focus on the good time, there had to be tons of them over the past 30 years. She must have been a saint of woman to put up with you for that long.

Thoughts and prayers from Wisconsin.

[Wonderboy]

Wow, this just stunned me. I am so sorry for your loss. There is just nothing we can say to help, other than offer our support. About all I can say is that if you had been given the choice of having her for 30 years but feeling this pain now, or never having her in your life with no pain, there is no doubt you which choice you would have made. 30 years isn't enough, but at least it was 30 years with a wonderful gift in your life.

[Fresno Bob]

wow Steve, my heart goes out to you. Revel in the "bonus time" you two shared and don't be ashamed or afraid to grieve. We are here for you

[senorsheep]

I am so sorry to hear this, steve. I'm not a "prayers" guy, so I have nothing to offer on that front, but please know that I am pulling for you to find your way through. You will always have friends who care here, I hope that is some small comfort. Take care, brother.

[MrFurious]

I'm so sorry for your loss, Steve. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.

[heyelander]

She was a wonderful woman. One day a few months ago she asked me if I had any regrets in life. I told her not really, because all of the choices I had made had led me to this point. I did say I wish I had been a more patient father when the kids were little and that I had been nicer to her mother when she was living with us.

(someday I'll tell all about the things we went through in the first 5 years or so of our marriage(none of it our fault - our families) that makes 30 so incredible)

She told me that she wished she had saved more money, but then again she had had a good time!

I think we would all love to hear any stories you would want to share.

[Lurker765]

I think we would all love to hear any stories you would want to share.

definitely. a fun story with her would be great to hear.

[Riff Raff]

So sorry for your loss Steve.

[Trader Mac]

As I lurk from time to time, I was sorry to see this Steve. I'll be praying for you during this difficult time.

[TS Garp]

I'm terribly sorry for your loss. Despite the fact that I haven't spent much time here in the last couple of years, I definitely think of you as part of Rotojunkie's foundation and a very kind soul. I'm so sorry. Take care of yourself.