I've been thinking a lot about this subject and how people grieve differently. As I get older, loss becomes a more frequent visitor. Friends, family or friends and/or family of those who I am close to. I am always interested in how people handle loss, it's impact, the length of their grief, etc. etc. I do so because....I don't believe I grieve. At all, nor have I ever. I lost my Father at 17, when he suddenly died at the age of 39 and over the years as is to be expected, the hits kept on coming so much so that I am, at 58, the matriarch of our family. We recently lost our little sister, expected, but still too young to go from anyone's perspective and again--Though it's an obviously tragic and sad thing, I really didn't go through much emotionally other than a brief 'well shit' The only loss that I even believe I shed a tear for was my grandmother's and that was all of 2-3 minutes.
Now some may say it's because I've always had to be or have taken upon myself to be the one who keeps it together when others fall apart, you know--the one who makes sure all the pragmatic stuff gets done because others are too broken up to function at times like these. That'd be understandable, but I don't know. Maybe I'm just callous, but then--I'm really not. believe I'm empathetic to loss. my own and others alike, I just never get emotional about it, nor does it linger in my mind or heart. I remember, but it doesn't affect me emotionally at least not in a significant way.
I was wondering, is this unusual? How do some of you handle your grief? Have you had any similar experiences in that you really weren't too fazed by a loss? I guess the massive and very public grieving over Kobe got me thinking about the subject because I'd never react like I see some folks to a person I really didn't know passing, I didn't lose any sleep when Gwynn died and he is/was probably my favorite celebrity person ever.
I really don't know.
Just thinking out loud about it right now.
Now some may say it's because I've always had to be or have taken upon myself to be the one who keeps it together when others fall apart, you know--the one who makes sure all the pragmatic stuff gets done because others are too broken up to function at times like these. That'd be understandable, but I don't know. Maybe I'm just callous, but then--I'm really not. believe I'm empathetic to loss. my own and others alike, I just never get emotional about it, nor does it linger in my mind or heart. I remember, but it doesn't affect me emotionally at least not in a significant way.
I was wondering, is this unusual? How do some of you handle your grief? Have you had any similar experiences in that you really weren't too fazed by a loss? I guess the massive and very public grieving over Kobe got me thinking about the subject because I'd never react like I see some folks to a person I really didn't know passing, I didn't lose any sleep when Gwynn died and he is/was probably my favorite celebrity person ever.
I really don't know.
Just thinking out loud about it right now.
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