It feels like Nullnor has been on Rotojunkie forever. I've long treasured his posts, his stories about animal interactions, his unique perspectives on all kinds of things. I've long thought he should have his own forum, because Nullnor posts are one of a kind.
I worry about the alcoholism. I know everybody has coping mechanisms, and I'm trying not to be judgmental. As a former alcoholic myself, 9 years sober, I wanted to share my perspective.
I should note at this point, I would have preferred to send Nullnor a PM, but he doesn't use that feature. I would hate to think that our community pushed someone out without reaching out over one drunken rant. Everybody has racist thoughts because we live in a racist society. Being impaired lowers our inhibition to share those thoughts we know are provocative. I wish we could go into issues of racism regarding South Korean dog meat festivals, Asian bat soup, etc. The racism based on a fear of cultures killing different uniquely special animals is super common, Nullnor isn't alone in that sentiment. His long-standing belief in the emotional and intellectual capacity of animals make him uniquely vulnerable to adopt this racist narrative.
At my peak, I was drinking about 12 beers per day. Light days would be 6-8, heavy days would be 15-20. It was incredibly tiring, and I could barely function for work. Also very expensive. But I remember when I started compromising what I wanted to do to drink more, I would leave a show to get to the liquor store before 11 (as all booze sales were shut down after 11), and other compromises, woke up next to girls I had zero recollection meeting, etc... I got to the point of playing private detective for myself, asking around about what I said or did, as I was blacking out constantly. When my definition of how I was living changed from "functional alcoholism" to dysfunctional, I made a choice to quit cold turkey for 1 year. And I never went back.
But in that year I also did magic mushrooms about 50 times, and gradually shifted more towards smoking pot, which I now smoke a ton of, nearly every single day. So I'm not claiming to have cured myself of a dependency on substances. But I wanted to share my path to semi-functionality.
Nullnor, you're a Hall of Famer for this site in my books. I hope you stick around.
I worry about the alcoholism. I know everybody has coping mechanisms, and I'm trying not to be judgmental. As a former alcoholic myself, 9 years sober, I wanted to share my perspective.
I should note at this point, I would have preferred to send Nullnor a PM, but he doesn't use that feature. I would hate to think that our community pushed someone out without reaching out over one drunken rant. Everybody has racist thoughts because we live in a racist society. Being impaired lowers our inhibition to share those thoughts we know are provocative. I wish we could go into issues of racism regarding South Korean dog meat festivals, Asian bat soup, etc. The racism based on a fear of cultures killing different uniquely special animals is super common, Nullnor isn't alone in that sentiment. His long-standing belief in the emotional and intellectual capacity of animals make him uniquely vulnerable to adopt this racist narrative.
At my peak, I was drinking about 12 beers per day. Light days would be 6-8, heavy days would be 15-20. It was incredibly tiring, and I could barely function for work. Also very expensive. But I remember when I started compromising what I wanted to do to drink more, I would leave a show to get to the liquor store before 11 (as all booze sales were shut down after 11), and other compromises, woke up next to girls I had zero recollection meeting, etc... I got to the point of playing private detective for myself, asking around about what I said or did, as I was blacking out constantly. When my definition of how I was living changed from "functional alcoholism" to dysfunctional, I made a choice to quit cold turkey for 1 year. And I never went back.
But in that year I also did magic mushrooms about 50 times, and gradually shifted more towards smoking pot, which I now smoke a ton of, nearly every single day. So I'm not claiming to have cured myself of a dependency on substances. But I wanted to share my path to semi-functionality.
Nullnor, you're a Hall of Famer for this site in my books. I hope you stick around.
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